We sold our place and we have to move. We have no choice but to take a rental unit in a not so desirable area because it is literally all we can afford in this stupid fucking city. We tried finding a place to buy but we are either priced out of anything half decent or the ones that are somewhat in our price range we get outbid by cash buyers who have money to throw around. So, we have had to settle on a rental unit that will do for now until we can get work out what we have to do to either survive in this city or leave this city.
Part of the sacrifice I have to make moving to this place is I have to give up CrossFit. The nearest box is a 15 minute drive away and the membership fees are high. I won’t be able to afford it anymore.
This breaks my heart.
CrossFit has been my world for the last three years. I’ve fallen in love with the workouts, the people and how it makes me feel.
I know I am fully capable of running my own workout in a regular gym but the thought of battling it out with other people for a piece of equipment and then getting stink eye from someone waiting to use it makes me sad. I know I’ve been spoiled being able to know that there will always be a barbell and squat rack for me to use whenever I want. I know it’s part of the perk of paying the expensive membership for going to a CrossFit.
It also is hard because I was working towards improving on a lot of movements like pull-ups, handstand push-ups and toes to bar. Now all the work I’ve put in to all of that will be pointless and difficult to do in a gym like the one that is my best option.
I also feel sad because CrossFit has become my social circle. Most of the things I do that are social outside of work are typically with members of my gym. What happens when I not only move further away from them but also stop doing the one main thing that bonds us? Will they still think of me? Will they still remember to invite me to their activities? Or will it naturally fizzle out because we’re not around each other every day and also because I feel sad that I’m not able to do what they do anymore?
I’m trying to find the positives in it, I really am. But I can’t help but feel resentful that I have to sacrifice something so major in my life for this move. Even if we bought a place I would have to give it up for affordability reasons.
So, I’m looking at purchasing a few items that I can bring into the gym at the building we are moving in to. I may not be able to do full CrossFit style workouts but I can at least do something similar. I’m sure there will be people there that aren’t happy with me hauling my own stuff in that they can’t use but whatever. I just really don’t want to veer away from functional training. I know I don’t need to do CrossFit in order to do functional training but it certainly makes it easier.
Sigh. I guess it is what it is and I have to make the best of the situation.
But it still sucks.